Playing with the cat's toy.... − 8 February, 2007
She came into the house, cat carrier in hand and walked into my life in a way that I had no idea what was happening. I mean I really had no idea what was going to happen.
We said that we were going to trade our "stories..." That meant that I was going to tell her everything that I didn't want to, and knew would drive her away... This is a great idea everything but the little fear monger in my heart was saying.
She came in and let the cat out. We watched as Bow did what it seemed both of us wanted to do. Bow ran behind the TV stand and refused to come out.
So she sat down on the couch, and commensed to play with the feather duster on a string that was Bow's toy the entire time that we talked.
I can't say just how much that was a good thing to see.
When we met the first time I saw this strong willed intimidating woman who wanted nothing to do with me. She pushed as hard as she could till I finally got the hint. No Relationship here. I wasn't going to get what I wanted at all. I mean it was stated, signed sealed and delivered in clearest of terms.
Then I get the IM. Could you watch my cat for me? Yea, sure I can. No problem!! ( I don't like cats, and my face blows up with hair and dander...) I figured it was for a week or 2 while she got settled in. Well, it was for 3 and a half months. Heh. Be careful what you wish for.
I signed on thinking, this will surely get her to like me!! We can finally be friends!! YAY!! I mean that!! I was really thinking that! I had been praying so hard not to want or expect anything from her. Imgine that... Me, Mr. I have to have a woman praying not to want her!!!
So she sat there on the couch, talking, and listening for so long that I was amazed, and all the while I could see this strong woman (still talking strong and holding me at a not so far as last time arms length) nervously fidgetting with this cat toy. I knew.
I had to. I had to have her. I fell in Love with her the more that we talked. She would say things like "Why do you have to be in a relationship?"
"What's with serial monogomy?"
"SLOOOOOOOWWW DOOOOOWWWWWNNNN!!!"
And other things that really made me think that I had a chance.
Then she shows up on my doorstep, cat in case, toy in hand, and shows me rather than tells me that she is just as scared of forever and just as faithful as I am that things just sometimes work themselves out if we stay out of the way and let Love happen...
We said that we were going to trade our "stories..." That meant that I was going to tell her everything that I didn't want to, and knew would drive her away... This is a great idea everything but the little fear monger in my heart was saying.
She came in and let the cat out. We watched as Bow did what it seemed both of us wanted to do. Bow ran behind the TV stand and refused to come out.
So she sat down on the couch, and commensed to play with the feather duster on a string that was Bow's toy the entire time that we talked.
I can't say just how much that was a good thing to see.
When we met the first time I saw this strong willed intimidating woman who wanted nothing to do with me. She pushed as hard as she could till I finally got the hint. No Relationship here. I wasn't going to get what I wanted at all. I mean it was stated, signed sealed and delivered in clearest of terms.
Then I get the IM. Could you watch my cat for me? Yea, sure I can. No problem!! ( I don't like cats, and my face blows up with hair and dander...) I figured it was for a week or 2 while she got settled in. Well, it was for 3 and a half months. Heh. Be careful what you wish for.
I signed on thinking, this will surely get her to like me!! We can finally be friends!! YAY!! I mean that!! I was really thinking that! I had been praying so hard not to want or expect anything from her. Imgine that... Me, Mr. I have to have a woman praying not to want her!!!
So she sat there on the couch, talking, and listening for so long that I was amazed, and all the while I could see this strong woman (still talking strong and holding me at a not so far as last time arms length) nervously fidgetting with this cat toy. I knew.
I had to. I had to have her. I fell in Love with her the more that we talked. She would say things like "Why do you have to be in a relationship?"
"What's with serial monogomy?"
"SLOOOOOOOWWW DOOOOOWWWWWNNNN!!!"
And other things that really made me think that I had a chance.
Then she shows up on my doorstep, cat in case, toy in hand, and shows me rather than tells me that she is just as scared of forever and just as faithful as I am that things just sometimes work themselves out if we stay out of the way and let Love happen...
