This is my girlfriend, C. − 11 November, 2004
The UK student center. a place of busy quick moving bodies. A quick stop between classes for most students. And a place for a quick meal for high schoolers coming to visit. Nothing really worthy of noting, but a placeholder for one of the moments which destoryed my self esteem.
Sixteen years old. I had fallen in love with him so young. Never a commitment, just being strung along. My best friend, my idol, and the only boy I would even admire. He held me close, took me on a date, and we spent hours upon hours talking.
Now, a student at UK, my little heart raced as I stood in the student center. I knew he would be there, as he had promised me via AIM a month prior to the date. I looked around, and finally I heard a booming voice.
LAURA HAGGARD!
I turned, my little heart was flying and my stomach was full of butterflies on speed. There he stood, smile on his face, and pointed to a short heavyset girl with a terrible short haircut.
Laura, this is my girlfriend, Cailyn.
Girlfriend? How long? Why wasn't I warned? I faked a smile, excused myself, and quickly bee-lined my way to the bathroom. Sat in the stall, and spent the rest of my lunch period crying. Two and half years, and suddenly I'd been lied to for a month about a relationship with a girl that was identical to me minus her apperance. The date we went on? meant nothing. I was willing to drive and stay anytime he wanted, seeing as I had just recieved my license a few days prior. all the days in the park? the late nights and messages to each others away messags? nothing. they meant nothing at all.
So being strung along, and realizing that everything I thought was possible turned out to be a lie.
And thus the jaded view on love began.
Sixteen years old. I had fallen in love with him so young. Never a commitment, just being strung along. My best friend, my idol, and the only boy I would even admire. He held me close, took me on a date, and we spent hours upon hours talking.
Now, a student at UK, my little heart raced as I stood in the student center. I knew he would be there, as he had promised me via AIM a month prior to the date. I looked around, and finally I heard a booming voice.
LAURA HAGGARD!
I turned, my little heart was flying and my stomach was full of butterflies on speed. There he stood, smile on his face, and pointed to a short heavyset girl with a terrible short haircut.
Laura, this is my girlfriend, Cailyn.
Girlfriend? How long? Why wasn't I warned? I faked a smile, excused myself, and quickly bee-lined my way to the bathroom. Sat in the stall, and spent the rest of my lunch period crying. Two and half years, and suddenly I'd been lied to for a month about a relationship with a girl that was identical to me minus her apperance. The date we went on? meant nothing. I was willing to drive and stay anytime he wanted, seeing as I had just recieved my license a few days prior. all the days in the park? the late nights and messages to each others away messags? nothing. they meant nothing at all.
So being strung along, and realizing that everything I thought was possible turned out to be a lie.
And thus the jaded view on love began.
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