Confusion  − April, 2000

You confuse me so much!

Do you want me to be pristine, or a whore?  (Just tell me.  I can be anything for you.)

Why do I have to be anything for you besides MYSELF?

Why can't you say THANK YOU when I go out in the rain at ONE A.M. to buy you a FUCKING COFFEE?

Why do you get ANGRY when I forget to hang your sweater after I DO YOUR GODDAMN LAUNDRY?

Do you realize that I run home to see you before work

That I wait for HOURS for you to come home...

How often do you wait for me?  You weren't even home when I was late, so
FUCK YOU.

This is where it's all coming out now...

YOU CONFUSE ME!

You can be so SWEET

You can be such an ASSHOLE.

I LOVE YOU

and it drives me crazy.

I am so confused.