What is my problem??? − 28 April, 2008
I got a referral to see a gastroenterologist about my mysterious troubles after my poop test came back negative. I could have seen him or her this week. But no. When I scheduled the appointment last week, I was worried about preparing for a stupid deadline that was three or four weeks out. But I haven’t been feeling very well since I scheduled the appointment. I called back to move my appointment to an earlier slot, but all the slots are full now.
Now I have to wait until May 29th. One more month of not feeling well. One more month of possibly feeling worse. The appointment is probably not even an hour long.
What the hell is wrong with me? What work deadline could be so important that I would jeopardize my own health, YET AGAIN, for work???
I asked to be put on the cancellation list, but who knows whether anything will turn up.
I cannot believe that I care so little for my own health that I would put work ahead of it. I don’t know what that says about how much I care about myself. This has got to stop. It’s not funny anymore. I am beside myself with bewilderment and grief. I am also afraid of whatever this thing is that is inside my body.
Now I have to wait until May 29th. One more month of not feeling well. One more month of possibly feeling worse. The appointment is probably not even an hour long.
What the hell is wrong with me? What work deadline could be so important that I would jeopardize my own health, YET AGAIN, for work???
I asked to be put on the cancellation list, but who knows whether anything will turn up.
I cannot believe that I care so little for my own health that I would put work ahead of it. I don’t know what that says about how much I care about myself. This has got to stop. It’s not funny anymore. I am beside myself with bewilderment and grief. I am also afraid of whatever this thing is that is inside my body.
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Comments:
intrepideddie (April 29, 2008. 05:04am)
Egads. It's another kindred, butt-headed spirit. Yeah, it took the very real possibility of skin cancer for me to be scared straight. Hope you start feeling better. And don't skip out on your appointment...
peahayes (April 29, 2008. 01:13pm)
I won't skip out, I promise. I sent email to my bosses saying that if a cancellation call comes, I'm outta here.
edunn (April 30, 2008. 03:15am)
I hate stress! It is pretty incredibly how it can manifest its ugly self. I have lost my voice on and off since December! I am better now but it was stress that caused it!!
peahayes (April 30, 2008. 11:47am)
My boss mentioned the same possibility. At first I didn't think that could be it, but maybe it's low-grade and constant stress. I'm sorry to hear about your voice. Thankfully, your fingers are fine and you can add your "virtual" voice to Dandelife!
PandoraBox (April 30, 2008. 06:33pm)
There is a good chance that you get called before May 29th. When I put myself on these lists I get called lots of time in advance. Hope you feel better soon.
peahayes (April 30, 2008. 09:20pm)
Thanks, all!