My Best Ex's Wedding part 2  − 1 May, 2008

I wonder if I slept so well last night because I finally decided (for good) not to go to the wedding ? I asked a friend's opinion, I thought about it a lot, I wrote about it and talked to my therapist about it.

As much as I would like to go because I want to show support...it just wouldn't be right to be there knowing that we are still attracted to each other and I wouldn't be quite as happy as someone should be at a wedding.

I have been crying more lately with most people I know falling in love, having babies, getting married, buying houses, etc. I am not the kind of woman to think I'm going to start living only when I meet someone. But it would be nice to be carefree about it when it happens instead of on edge. Oh well.