Slipped Again  − 12 May, 2008

That's about the content in my brain at the moment : frlmbbhd.

I saw him just after having thought of him. It was a wonderful surprise. But as always, I didn't know quite what to say and I can never invite him out. It just slips through my fingers every time. And every time I feel like I have to force myself to be present while I talk. Most of the time it's like a bright light, my mind is cleared, my mouth goes on and on and I have no idea what I say...and then it's too late, he's gone. So I don't know if he likes me. Well enough to kiss me on the cheeks but is it enough to go out ?

Last week it happened with someone else I like enough to have been kind of a shrew to. I think the reason I'm so weird with him is that he attracts me. I have changed my tune and am more polite and smiling...and when I saw him last week he said that "I'm nice now". Of course, I wasn't alone and again, the conversation I wanted slipped away. I couldn't say my apologies or show how nice I can be.

I feel SO stu-PIIID !!