Accidental buddhist  − 22 May, 2008

I have a friend who is a buddhist. He shows more attention to ants than to my feelings, he lacks compassion, I think. Mostly he's afraid of relationships that would need involvement and listening to the other.

I also know a friend's boyfriend to be a buddhist. There is no zen environment there. His house is so chaotic that when I walked through the door I almost gasped and cried out loud "For Pete's Sake ! How can you live like that!"

Another one can't sit still. He works all the time. He can't do nothing. He goes to the zendo once a month when he has time.

I find buddhism to be interesting, I'm curious about it. Do I think I could become buddhist ? Maybe. Maybe not.

There is much contemplation, meditation, zenifying, feeling compassionate...I see buddhism as a nice quiet stroll through life seeing it for what it is. I have got the suffering part all right. We live in a valley of tears, everything is a source of suffering. See ? I'm a bit buddhist. By accident. I didn't plan to be on this road of suffering but I am and I accept it.

I have a bit trouble with the path, you know the one with the 4 noble truths and the octuple thingamajig ? The Noble octuple sentier which is the fourth of the Noble truths. All about being Just : speech, action, thought...

If I gossip about Amy Winehouse, does it mean I am not a buddhist. Oh then.