Online chating  − 31 May, 2008

Something I did not say anybody but late 2000, I was chating with a girl for nearly a year almost 3 or 4 times a week. She was my therapist (not really in fact). It was a free service for both because each other has something to learn and it was free time and just writing like in a discussion.

She was 36, I met her one times by accident.  I was on my bicycle and she was on roller. Both was happy but too busy for spend more than 5 minutes (in fact, I was not busy but just too much over charmed). She was a nice cloned of Sandra Bullock.

So it was a therapist relation on ICQ (just before MSN). I had to work on me ( at this time I was divorced and was running after all woman without catching one for more than a few hours, I wanted the perfect girl ) and she had to speak about sex and men. Even she was a good therapist and a specialist; she missed some reality facts and was not able to give her completely to a guy.  She worked in the old Montreal and she charged near $200 per hour. Most of time she worked with layer in case of sexual abuse with young people! With her, I learnt a lot of things and she told me something I remember now!

She said:

You are dead in your heart and your head at thirties.  You have too many loves to give and the girl you need can’t be yours forever! The things you think about are not the things you do! You have too many emotions even you seem without at the first look.

One day her sister (33) was chating together and she wrote, I’m divorced, alone today and if you come, you can have the one is ready!  Which one do you prefer?  I didn’t choose the sister and lose a good shot but sex is not always the winner.

One day she said, she had found the good guy and decided to marry him. So we stopped our chat! I don’t know what happened for both of them.

But I know what happened to me! I don’t run for girls anymore even sometimes one is one my way, but I do not make anything to put her on my way!

One day, I found someone, so particular than I miss something, perhaps she was like my unknown sister, but it was too late and impossible for one of us.