Inhale, Exhale, Let go, Repeat  − 3 June, 2008

I have such trouble sleeping when I think about B. that I have to think about something else. My nerves are all bunched up. Why isn't it easier to date ? I wish it was like in my teenage years, we fancy each other, think we look hot so let's bring it on. Let's hold hands.

So at night when I wake up and can't sleep, I inhale, exhale and say "let it go", inhale, exhale, let gooo.

It does help. I remiond myself that not all things are meant to be, that I WILL find someone who will like me however screwed up I am, that this guy will live alone, won't have memorabilia form an ex all over the place, will not take me for a plaster, a mother, a whore...

INHALE, EXHALE, LET GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO