Who Are We?  − 24 June, 2008

Quote from My So Called Life: -

"People are always saying you should be yourself. Like yourself is this definate thing. Like a toaster."

I have had this as my msn name for awhile and today one of my friends questioned what it was about....i tried to explain and they came to this conclusion that i have a personality disorder.

I think it makes total sense...and i dont think it leads me to having some sort of personality disorder.

As it says - you should always be yourself, people want to know you, the real you; so be yourself. But i honestly think that people dont know who they truly are, how can they be themselves if they dont know.

Somedays i think i have myself sussed out - but all of a sudden something happens which throws it out of the window. But knowing that, it is me changing - life and people change day to day. Sometimes it can be obvious and others it can be the most subtle things that you dont realise.

My friend said he has always had the same personality and will never change - but through growing up he would of changed immensly - it isnt called a personality disorder - its called Life.

Im pretty sure everyone once in awhile has tried to change something about themselves or pretend to be someone they are not just to fit in. I know i have. You realise that that isnt who you are, not really.

People say that things change, things dont change its the people that do.
What im trying to say, i think - is that no matter how much you may think you know who you are - or who someone else is, you actually dont. You learn something new about yourself everyday, that i guess gives you an extra piece to the puzzle that is called you.

I also got asked if i was depressed - due to some previous msn screennames. (these are lyrics from songs)

Im not depressed - its just some things happen that would upset me. Its called trying to express emotions.
As i say im not depressed, i may not always be happy tho, but not everything in life is meant to be happy.

I just havent found what or who makes me happy. I havent found that thing that i look forward to waking up to in the morning, im yet to find that passion.
My friend also lead this to me having a personality disorder - this doesnt mean i constantly change my personality - it means i have emotions and im not afraid to show them, one day i can be happy and another i can be kinda sad i guess, sort of confused.....as far as i know they are emotions and not weird personality traits for a disorder?

Also for the majority of the time there is nothing upsetting me, i just like them as screenames, and i hate it when people assume that something is wrong and keep asking if im ok. If i have a problem and i want to talk about it, then i would....if not, dont ask.

Im human, i except change...and im constantly trying to figure out who i am and who i am going to become....is there really anything wrong with that???

Comments:

peahayes (June 29, 2008. 04:03am)

I think people like to figure out other people too. These days, people like to diagnose other people. For some reason, we have gone diagnosis crazy! Assuming you don't have a personality disorder, having a range of emotions is a good thing. It's good that things can touch us, and that we can be happy later.