"love sick and friend sick"  − 8 August, 2008

So another blog...theyre like busses, i dont write one for ages then two come along at the same time...maybe its because im not feeling so cheerful, and i dont really know why! I have been diagnosed as being "love sick and friend sick" which may be partly true...the guy i am in to has gone to Iraq and the girlie i spend most of my time after work with has been on holiday for two weeks and gets back on Tuesday, so i havent been doing so much. However..its not like i havent had offers, i have...i just literally cant be bothered to do anything at all...there are certain people i want to see lots of and then other people i just cant face,not in a horrible way...like i hate them or anything but just...i dunno, i cant explain it without sounding mean!

I am also eating tonnes of junk food...today i went to Tesco and purchased - two packs of chocolate fingers (they were bogof,) some snowballs, and some pink and whites. I have also eaten chips with beans, cheese and bbq sauce and a magnum since getting home from work! Is this what being love sick and friend sick feels like..?
If so...then maybe i am!

I am also really struggling to write a letter to Iraq guy...letters are nice, romantic almost...people can keep them forever, and you can write loads of things you wouldnt say in other forms of communication...which may be what scares me! Its like whatever i say goes down on record forever...its like...really permanent...but at the same time...i know its a nice thing to do and i realy need to write one soon *cause they take ages to get there* so i guess im just going to have to pull my head out of my arse and get on with it...guess its the old worrying about what other people think of me thing again!

Guess i just need to focus on the fact my drinking buddie gets back next week, then i go to V festival...so really its all good in the hood. Maybe i should write a letter when i get back from V so it gives me something interesting to say?!

Well tomorrow is another day...
And i need t go because the laptop is damn hot on my lap...

xxx